Round 9 & 10

Well...of course I'm draggin' my ass about keeping up with the current status of things. Wouldn't you think I'd be a little more on track than this....no excuses > I don't let anyone give me excuses and I expect no more from myself (did I state that correctly?) so....I have no excuse.Nancy has finished the 3 treatments in a row (3 each wk - 3 wks) and had this Thursday off. Just like a job! She/we don't know what the blood markers are at right now and won't until probably this coming Monday (6/4/07). Kiefer still set her up for another series of 3. So the struggle, battle, fight, anxiety, frustration and general pissed off attitude continues on.However, Nancy still has her seemingly (I never quite know) attitude and takes it all in and I believe that she is very thankful that she is still able to be treated. I've got some races coming up this month and I am really skeptical of how things will go. She always goes with me! I can't go by myself or rather I don't like to go without her! It's always been part of the program > she's the only one I hear yelling for me > she's always there at the finsih line > DAMN!This treatment style leaves her in a perpetual state of fatigue. She's fine the day after but the following coupla dayz are somewhat of a recovery stage. I am somewhat apprehensive about her traveling with me out of state (it's for a 2-3 day stint) and I am afraid it will be more activity than she needs. She won't be up and running around all over the place. We stay pretty stationary up until race day and then it's just for a coupla hours. There is one event at the end of this month that will be a 5+hour race/event. It will be very hot out and probably very humid (Lubbock, TX)and I think it would be a real drain on her. It's something we'll have to address the closer we get.So peepz...all in all we're/she's on a different track now and this will be a 7 month run since the first treatment at the beginning of Dec/06.Nancy's very strong belief in GOD sustains her! It's what gives her the most strength, she accepts what is given. She finds comfort in that!As for me...I just keep tryin' to be the best I can be knowing that somewhere I'm missing the mark....but I keep tryin'!

As always until next time...mucho love!

Roger